Good Bye Heart

I ended this week down one child. My cedar class was originally a class of 9 but after Wednesday we became a class of 8. You would think I would feel the difference in the numbers but I honestly don’t and this is because Heart rarely attended school. Since the first day of school Heart has yet to show up on time or attend a full week of school. Apparently she had been sick so this is why she wasn’t attending school much the fist couple of weeks. Then, I come to find out that she doesn’t really want to go to school so instead encouraging her to get to school on time (10am) she will often times roll in at her own leisure any where from 10:30 to 12. Next excuse Bonnie (Korean assistant) told me was that Heart’s mom feels I don’t smile enough and it makes Heart uncomfortable. Trying not to take this comment personal, I asked myself why she might feel this way and I think it is because when Heart shows up it is always in the middle of my lesson and therefore I find it annoying to have to stop my lesson to deal with her. I honestly feel that if her mom was adamant about getting Heart to school on time and every day Heart would see how fun our days actually are and that I can and do smile a lot with the children. Finally, the last excuse for Heart’s absent, behavior and tardiness is she doesn’t like doing the school work. Probably because she doesn’t know what she is supposed to do because she NEVER shows up on time and always misses the lesson. Wow do I find this whole thing ridiculously annoying and stupid. Any how, in the end her mom decided to take her out of Bambini and it just so happen to be on Wednesday the one and only day Heart shows up on time. Shocked to even see her make it to school, let a lone on time, it was sad to see her go. After school her mom came to collect Heart’s belongings and we chatted a bit. I told her I am sad to see Heart go but in the end she might be doing the right thing for Heart since she is obviously not happy here and wished her luck finding another school more suitable to Heart’s needs. And so, my class of nine is now down to eight which ironically has always felt like eight with those rare exceptional days of the addition of Heart. It is sad to see her leave but good bye Heart.

From Seoul